Posted by Antonio Decruz
on December 06, 2000 at 22:49:59:
In Reply to: I am so mad, so depressed I just want to die...please someone kill me....... posted by Katie on December 06, 2000 at 22:31:48:
I look at all my friends (I am 19) and I say to myself why me? all of them have a normal face, no acne what so ever, people tell me, the normal "You Look Fine" but in reality, they really don't know how a person feels, I think you just vented your feelings quiet well, probably all of us, that have quiet bad acne ( i have been on accutane twice ) have these feelings, I beleive it has nothing to do with the medication but with the way we look, it's true, the first thing a person see's is a face, and people generally judge a person on it, but you see thats not the hardest part, the hardest part is actually looking at your own face, and not being able to accept the fact, that yes I have acne, I allways comprimise with myself saying "it looks good" or asking all my friends "do i look ok" I have no self confidence anymore, and I beleive I have lost my whole teen life, probably the greatest years in someones life,
I don't know what to say to you, but I beleive everyone has a sickness for a reason, we allways ask why, why why why? But simply put, we will never know why, maybe we can assume some reasons, but let's not put the blame on god, there are people out there, who are dieing in wars, who have cancer, who have aids, who have no homes, no family etc..... You have a husband, a family, I think you should be happy that god has given you what some people would die for people WITH out acne, there are a lot of people on this board who are going threw a whole lot of pain then yourself, imagine BEING ALONE, NO FRIENDS, NO one TO CRY TO,
Acne changed me, it made me a completely different person, I will be honest with you, I don't even remember who I used to be, and sometimes I cry to myself, cause I loved that person. However, I hope one day, I can find him again, I think we have something in common,,, we both have lost something and thats obviously Life.....