Posted by Karen J.
on December 24, 1999 at 15:40:12:
I've got to be spaciest person I know. I feel like I'm walking a few inches above the ground. I'm never really connnected to the situation at hand. I don't remember how many times I heard during childhood, "Pay attention to what you're doing!" (As they gave me THE LOOK). They just didn't know that I COULDN'T. And I still can't. I have poor auditory processing skills. You cannot tell me to do something and I retain the info long enough to carry it out. I'd really like to have it in writing. In school I always got on my report card, "does not listen and follow directions." I drop things, turn things over, ruin things. A real klutz. A walking disaster. It's 10 times worse in front of people. You can always count on me to embarrass you and myself by saying something stupid at the worst possible time. NO MENTAL BRAKES! Needless to say, this causes me a great deal of emotional pain. This causes me to retreat into seclusion and I realize this only makes the anxiety worse. I can't finish anything, even things I like. I have great intentions and alot ot enthusiasm initially, but it soon loses out to some other interest, which never gets finished either. I would like to return from outerspace and connect to Earth. I'm considering meds because sometimes, this really depresses me greatly. Am I the only one like this at my age?