Posted by Vicki
on November 16, 2000 at 19:43:15:
In Reply to: Zoloft and ADD or ADHD posted by Zyen on October 24, 2000 at 08:13:02:
Re: : wow really need to finish this paper but if i don't get this off my mind it will don cusume me.
I was also put on zoloft but, unlike you, have never been diagnosed with ADD but suspect strongly. I found that Zoloft had no beneficial effect for me even possibly negative. I think I have spent most of my life hiding my 'disabilities' and thus cannot enjoy life 100% as am not out there 100%. This does lead to slight anxiety and thus this was my overall 'problem'. Anyway, I totally agree with you I have 1000 thoughts a sec and of course they're not all going to be positive!! In fact the sad fact is that most of them are positive 'wide eyed' thoughts (but feel as though people won't understand them) and generally feel as though I am a happy individual apart from the fact that I have to hide my 'mess' (unfinished work and house chores). I think women (I'm assuming you're female which is wrong of me I know) suffer more because they're having to live up to ideals of what women should be and this does cause a lot of negative feeling towards our own self when we can't . Especially if we can't be focused on all the tasks we think we should as a 'female'.
I have read a fair bit (flicked through and 'absorbed' the interesting bits) on ADD and am becoming more accepting of my 'flaws', even when bosses/workmates frown at my full filing tray (an unchallenging task to me). I'm learning to allow myself to care less about it - I cannot change myself anyway, I have to just enhance all the positive attributes I possess.
At the moment my 'excitable' manner is a positive element in my work place but my position may change and I could find that I am once again going to have to supress my natural reactions because most people will not take you seriously, if you 'gush' with seeming nonsense. I find 'taking control of myself' a constant battle/strain and sense that you possibly feel the same.
Anyway I thought maybe you (or anybody else) might relate to some of this. Thanks for listening and good luck to everyone overcoming any difficulties in their lives.