Posted by Camille
on December 03, 1999 at 14:45:57:
In Reply to: Re: Wife/mother with ADD posted by Lisa on November 21, 1999 at 14:21:52:
Hi, I have been treated on various medications for depression over the past 2 years. My inability to take care of the house and the kids has been very hard. I wanted so desparately to do a good job, but seemed to fail every day. This has been coupled with the life long feeling I've had that I AM A FAILURE. My son is also being treated for depression, and has the same symptoms. We both seem incapable of handling our short comings. In therapy we have examined the past, tried all kinds of meds. Quite by accident we had what seemed to be a miracle. I am on Wellbutrin 150 mg twice a day. Somehow, I have been able to focus enough to get my jobs done, at least to my satisfaction, I've been more consistant with my kids, and have been very "normal" in terms of how I view my failures, or letting things get away from me. I've always felt that I had to be perfect, or there was no use to my even existing. There was NEVER a medium ground. It was so painful to live that way and see my son head off in that direction. Today, I am more able, but not perfect, and for the first time in my life THAT'S OK!! I can't recall ever feeling happy, when it wasn't connected with thinking I had done something perfect. Now, I'm told that Wellbutrin is one of the meds used to treat ADD, and it all makes sense now. I also have a new insight in to how to help my son.