Posted by scott
on September 07, 2000 at 16:30:39:
In Reply to: Re: Marijuana - Any one else addicted??? posted by kb on September 05, 2000 at 17:39:19:
I think I may attend my first Marijuana Anonymous meeting tomorrow. I'm 30, and I've smoked since I was 17. My pattern was smoking at the end of the day...after work, after the gym. It never interfered with my career or family life. Today, I smoke less frequently--only on the weekends. Yet, I still feel trapped by it. I usually smoke alone...I'll screen my calls when I'm high. I view it as a reward from dealing with my stressful job all week. Even though it hasn't lead to stronger drug use for me, and I don't have to have it every day, I consider myself an addict. I get anxious if I think I can never have it again. When I have a lot of free time and not a lot of plans (like the start of a weekend), it's hard for me to resist smoking. Just because it is a distration from my anxiety. I've debated if I really want to stop smoking for good or not. I mean, life is short, right? And why deny myself something I like? But beyond my desire to smoke and 'feel good' is a desire to be free from this addiction, I think. I'm going to discuss this a lot with my therapist tonight, and will probably attend the MA meeting tomorrow. Just adding my two cents!