Posted by Joan
on September 11, 2000 at 13:01:22:
I'm 36 and completely addicted to alcohol. My first drink was at age 12. Alcohol has done nothing except cause me horrendous problems and embarrassing situations. The hangovers are unbearable. I think I have damaged my kidneys because they always hurt. I cannot succeed with AA. It felt like a breeding ground for low self esteem that I already have enough of. Men won't leave me alone there either. I hate what I have become, but don't seem to have the wherewithall to stop this. I'm afraid to see my doctor because I know once this is in your medical record you will never get individual insurance again and somehow the wrong people find out and look at you like a loser. What can I do to get better?