Posted by Christine
on October 03, 2000 at 14:08:27:
In Reply to: Need help getting off a serious crack addiction posted by Dave on June 07, 2000 at 18:28:38:
: I am a married father of two who has been using crack since high school. I am now almost 30!
: It is worse now then it has ever been. The strange part is that I have a daily habit but my wife and kids dont know. i have become an expert on sneaking, lying, accounting for missing money, everything!
: Ive been at the same job for 4 years now, the bills all get paid( my wife also works), the kids are happy but i am not. I dont like feeling that way around my family, I dont like the neighborhood that I have to go to get it. I want to stop but everytime i get even 10 extra dollars, its spent on crack. I also have a large pot habit which my wife knows about and tolerates and the corner where i get the crack is also the corner where i get my pot. So even when I go to get pot 9 times out of 10 I wind up getting crack instead! I dont want to let my family know, so rehab is out of the quiestion. What can I do on my own to quit?
Bottom line is that if you don't come clean to your family you will not get clean. No chance. You should go to an NA website and see what others do to get clean. It can happen but you have to be honest with yourself and others. You probably love your wife a lot and you probably hate lying to her. You also would probably be pleasantly surprised with her response (if you are honest and you honestly have made the decision to do "WHAT IT TAKES" to stop. If you aren't ready to do "WHAT IT TAKES" you will not succeed. Good luck and think of those babies. They need a clean and sober daddy! And your wife needs a sober mate....