Posted by Victoria
on October 31, 2000 at 18:18:28:
In Reply to: Attn: Victoria - UPDATE posted by Jessica on October 30, 2000 at 17:57:21:
: The weekend is over and I didn't crave pot at all. I did get drunk on Saturday night (Halloween for adults), but I paid for it on Sunday. I am starting to sleep better, I am starting to remember why I was so against it before I started up again. Unfortunately there is still about a quarter sitting at my house. I know my husband has to quit at his own pace, and he hasn't done it around me in over a week. However he honestly cannot see that he is addicted and that he should quit. I can't tell him to quit or he will get angry with me, or hold it against me when he has a craving (like you and your husband). Once we (actually him) are done with this little stash I am going to have to sit down with him and discuss how I have a problem, and I cannot have it in the house. I would rather he didn't buy it, but if he did he would have to keep it somewhere else. I don't want to prohibit him from using it, but I don't want to use it anymore. Not even for a little bit... I think that I am comprimising here and I hope that he will see that. I am lucky that I have only been doing it for about a year, because it is easier for me to quit. But I think my hubby has been doing it since just after high school (~7years). He doesn't see how much of an idiot he has become in just the last year I have known him. See when we were dating he still lived at his parents place. Once we started getting serious he moved into my place. We got married, and ever since he moved in the amount of pot he smoked got more and more. I don't know if it was just because he felt more comforatable around me, or he figures that now he doesn't have the watchful eye of his mom that he can do it more often. I hope this works out...
: Anyway, how are you doing? You were mentioing last time that you were starting to have a hard time. How is it going now? Are you happy? Is your husband starting to understand? Keep us all updated. You are in my thoughts and prayers... - Jessica
You sound like you're coping really well! I'm so glad for you. I think you'll have a little trouble with your husband, though. I've been through it, I know. He'll find all kinds of ways to justify using it. He'll say it's his reward for working hard, etc. I've heard all of the excuses......
I slipped up for three days. My husband's co-worker/friend called him down to his place, and I pleaded with him not to go, but he did anyway. I can't have it in the house without doing it. He gives my husband a little bud here and there, and we had one for three days. We just did one little hit at nighttime, but I'm very upset about it. I ruined 8 weeks of sobriety for nothing. Keep in mind, we've both been addicted for over twenty years, so it's not an easy road. Those three days were last week, and we're back to "normal" again. He's been in a pretty good mood, though. It's either getting easier with time, or he's good at faking it....
I hope you have luck with your husband. It's way too easy to smoke it when it's in the house. Keep me posted!