Posted by Lola55
on November 06, 2000 at 07:19:37:
Hello All - I am new to this message board. I have been addicted to marijuana for 20 years, and have battled alcohol, speed, cocaine, crack, ecstasy, nitrous, tobacco and prescription drug addictions throughout those years also. Marijuana dominates my life, and it is very easy to allow the days, months and years slip away in that passive state. Nevertheless, I have two young children from whom I must protect from my addiction and a loving husband who is eager to see me quit. I cannot see myself still addicted to pot after age 40, so that gives me 11 months to get this thing under control. Of course, I have sought out counseling over the years, and am doing so again, however, I have a real desire to avoid any NA or AA meetings - though I would consider group counseling and online meetings. I do not deny the health and emotional deterrents of using marijuana, rather I suppose after all I have been through, I see it as the lesser of the evils. I also rely on it for anger management, and would much rather get stoned than be frustrated.
I am wondering also about the effects of prescription anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medications. Are they helpful for withdrawal, or are they merely treating the symptoms of addiction? For instance, I am already taking Celexa and Buspar. Am I depressed and anxious because of my pot usage? Should I then stop the medications also? I realize these are questions for a professional, but I also would appreciate individual real life experiences.
There is always more to share, and I suppose I could really use some buddies that have similar experiences. THANKS for your time and advice!