Posted by LIN
on October 05, 1999 at 17:07:35:
In Reply to: Re: crack addiction posted by kecia on June 08, 1999 at 11:37:13:
: I dont know if you sought help for your addiction by now, or if your still using. I just found this spot. My name is Kecia and I am an addict, alcoholic. I can only tell you my experience, strength and hope. I too "was" a weekend warrior, but using dope gets harder to control after a while. It turned into everyday. I said I wouldn't ever let it get like that either. And Sunday nite partying, turned into, Monday morning still getting "one more, and I'm through". Not. I had to lose damn near my life to get out. I went to jail and that was my first surrender. I stayed off crack for 2yrs. I got my sh*t together, and then one day that sh*t called me, and I went out for 11 hours. I came back, by the grace of God and been off everything for 8yrs. I go to 12 step meetings, and they are good. But just like anything, you got to have a made up mind that your staying off the dope/booze because it's f*cked up, your f*cked up on the stuff and you usually f*ck over someone for "one more". I went to therapy too. There's nothing wrong w/talking to a shrink, professional, whatever about your life. I think you got to check around though, cause the bottom line is about the m-o-n-e-y. Also, I had to change my whole lifestyle. I mean I couldn't hang at the clubs all the time, or the dopehose for real. I even had to let some long time friends go, because all our lives it really was about the getting high. I thank God I didn't kill anyone, get a std or that I landed in the slammer for a long time. And I got the nice things of womanhood back. I look at myself in the mirror and like what I see. I also like how I feel now. Using dope is always an option for me, I just don't chose it. I may still act f*cked towards people, and situations, and I can fall out w/the whole world. I just no for sure that if I get some dope/booze, I am out the box for sure. My hope for you and me is we don't use ever again. They say "one day at a time", fine, but for me, I can't afford to get high like I like to. I don't like feelings, I don't like nothing to interfere w/my using, so hell no, I can't afford to get high like I like to. Besides, I know now that there is a better life than that. So. I hope you can stop. And if you can, hope you stay stopped. Love ya
: : : : I have a weekend crack cocaine problem. I am fine all week then Friday rolls around and sometimes I can make untill Saturday . For the past three years I can not stay off for more then 2 weeks. Please can someone help me. I feel I have lost myself. DOes anyone know what I am going though. Please Help.
: : : Hi Joanna,
: : : you are addicted to one of the most addictive substances. I can not tell you tell you what you are going through, because I never have, but my fiancee. He tried crack last year around that time. First on the weekends only, later full time. He lost his job, selfesteem, and all his possessions. In the meantime I became
: : : expert in crack addiction. There are many support groups, which approach the problem differently. The most known are Narcotics Anonymous or Cocain Anonymous. I am pretty sure that there are meeting in your town. They approach did not work with my fiancee, he needed something more rational, so I found the book Rational Recovery.
: : : This self-help group has also Website (www.rationalrecovery.com). I like the way they attack the addiction, it makes so much sense. Besides that there are other websites, such as How to kick Crack Addiction etc. Look up Recovery on Yahoo.
: : : Even though my fiancee tried very hard to stay clean, he kept on relapsing. He also had a pattern, every two weeks, later he was diagnoses with Bi-Polar disorder. This is a mood disorder and a lot of people selfmedicate themself with illegal drugs to even up the mood swings. Therefore he could not stay clean. Now he is on medication and o.k so far.
: : : So please look up Bi-polar disorder and see if you have any symptoms. If you do go to the doc. I have noticed that there are a lot of people that used drugs and stoped when they dicided that they had enough without treatment, just will power. On the other hand, there are a lot of people who do not want ot use, but can not stop without help. I believe that these people often suffer from
: : : Bi-polar disorder.
: : : Please e-mail me if you need more information.
: : : Lilly
: : LILLY
: : I GOT COLD CHILLS REAING YOUR RESPONSE.
: : LET ME MAKE A COUPLA COMMENTS AND ASK YOU A COUPLA QUESTIONS, IF YOU PLEASE.
: : I AM A CRACK ADDICT.
: : 10 YEARS AGO, I WAS SELECTED AS ONE OF THE TOP 10 LAWYERS AND ONE OF THE MOST ELIGBLE BACHELORS IN MY RATHER LARGE CITY
: : TODAY, I AM HEAVILY IN DEBT, HAVE LOST EVERYTHING, AND AM ALONE.
: : I WAS JUST ABOUT TO HEAD FOR THE CRACKHOUSE AND SPEND MY LAST 40 FOR A COUPLA 20'S WHEN I DECIDED TO LOOK UNDER CRACK ADDICTION UNDER ALTAVISA
: : 1. I AM AWARE HOW N.A. TREATS ADDICTION ( A COURSE FROM WHICH YOU NEVER GRADUATE) BUT I AM NOT AWARE HOW COCAINE ANONYMOUS TREATS IT. WHAT DO THEY DO.
: : 2. I AM A MODERATE BI-POLAR. AT FIRST, I TOOK WELBUTRIN AND I DIDN'T SEEM TO WANT TO SMOKE CRACK DURING THAT TIME, BUT IT MADE ME TO ANTZY AND WIRED. SO, MY SHRINK SWITCHED ME TO EFEXXOR AND MY CRACK USE HAD TRIPLED DURING THE TIME I USED EFEXXOR, BUT I'M NOT SURE THAT EFFEXOR IS "THE CAUSE" OR EVEN "A CAUSE ". WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT AND WHAT MEDICATION DOES YOUR FIANCE TAKE.
: : 3. I'VE NEVER KNOWN A CRACK USER WITH A SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP WITH A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. THE QUESTION IS: WHICH CAME FIRST, THE CHICKEN OR THE EGG. DOES THE CRACK ADDICTION CAUSE OR RESULT FROM THE LACK OF A SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP. WHAT WAS THE CASE WITH YOUR FIANCE?
: : WAS HE ADDICTED BEFORE HIS RELATIONSHIP OR DID HE BECOME ADDICTED DURING/BECAUSE OF HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU.
: : 4. MY PERSONAL BELIEF IS THAT CRACK ADDICTION IS
: : A SYMPTOM OF AN UNDERLYING PROBLEM.
: : 5. IF YOUR BECOMING AN EXPERT ON CRACK ADDICTION
: : IS DONE OUT OF LOVE FOR YOUR MAN RATHER THAN
: : TRYING TO CHANGE/MODIFY HIM TO SUIT AND SERVE YOU BETTER, THEN MAY YOU GOD BLESS AND PROTECT YOU AND MAKE HIS/HER GRACE TO SHINE UPON YOU AND GIVE YOU AND YOUR FIANCEE PEACE.
: : MY COMPANION OF 15 YEARS AND WIFE OF 10 YEARS COMPLETELY ABANDONED ME (ESPECIALLY PSYCHOLOGICALLY)ADDICTION MATERIALIZED. SHE HAS NEVER READ A WORD ABOUT THE PROBLEM AND NEVER EVEN ASKS ME HOW I AM. NEVER. IN SPITE OF THE FACT THAT THE WELFARE OF OUR BEAUTIFUL 10 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER DEPENDS UPON MY RECOVERY
: : LOVE AND PEACE
: : "BRAD"
: : (THE PSYCHO PROFESSOR)
: : :