Posted by been there
on February 08, 2000 at 04:58:24:
In Reply to: nurse addicted to IV pain killers posted by lily on February 03, 2000 at 15:07:41:
: I am a nurse who is currently working in an area where IV medications are readily available and easily missed. It started out as curiosity. Even though I'm a nurse, I had a little phobia about needles. Not anymore. Unfortunately my husband enjoys shooting up as much as I do. The other night he used too much and stopped breathing. It was fortunate for us both that I still had some level of consciousness and I was able to give him mouth to mouth. He still had a pulse but was completley cyanotic and not breathing. I don't understand why I am still continuing to do this. I know what the end result is. Is there anyone out there who understands?
Yes, you are suicidal, period.
You do know the result and you just don't care.
When you care you will get help from someone that can actually help you.