Posted by I can't take it no more
on March 28, 2000 at 11:42:40:
My name is mike, i am 26. At first i would be tempted to say i am a Compulsive Gambler, and an alcoholic.
but if i think of my life and what i have done so far. I have a addiction to everything that is destructive. i have
fallen into a vicious circle of pain, and no mather how hard i try to be good and to change my life for the best, I
fall deeper. I dont have any will to control my behavior. Sex, Drugs, Alcohol, Gambling, are part of my everyday
life, and i fight against them but always loose the battle. I often see the suicide as THE way out of this mess,
but deep inside, i know one day i will be happy, once i am in control of my life/action.
what is the problem with me....i cant control my behavior.