Posted by JT
on March 28, 2000 at 12:23:04:
In Reply to: How deep will i fall posted by I can't take it no more on March 28, 2000 at 11:42:40:
: My name is mike, i am 26. At first i would be tempted to say i am a Compulsive Gambler, and an alcoholic.
: but if i think of my life and what i have done so far. I have a addiction to everything that is destructive. i have
: fallen into a vicious circle of pain, and no mather how hard i try to be good and to change my life for the best, I
: fall deeper. I dont have any will to control my behavior. Sex, Drugs, Alcohol, Gambling, are part of my everyday
: life, and i fight against them but always loose the battle. I often see the suicide as THE way out of this mess,
: but deep inside, i know one day i will be happy, once i am in control of my life/action.
: what is the problem with me....i cant control my behavior.
Guess what Mike? YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!
You are lucky however, because you know you have a problem and you are still young.
My alcoholic husband wasn't so lucky and has had numerous head injuries from drinking and falling down. It wasn't until he had a concusion with blood coming out his ear that he had a CT scan and the doctors discovered previous head injuries. He is still drinking and does not admit to his problem even though it has ruined his life and has separated him from his wife and four children.
Any kind of support group would be helpful for you. You don't have to tell anyone your name. You don't have to talk if you don't want to. Just listen to the other people. They may be worse off than you and maybe even you have some help you can give them. Maybe you will accept help from someone else.
There are lots of Gamblers Anonymous, Alcoholics Anonymous, Overeaters Anonymous, etc. groups out there. Maybe you will find one that is perfect for you and that you enjoy being with the people there.
I have gone to Alanon for friends and relatives of alcoholics and have found lots of nice people there. We all had something in common - someone elses drinking had affected our lives in a negative way.
I have also sat in on Alcoholics Anonymous meetings as a guest and actually ran into several people that I knew and that were working one day at a time to overcome their addictions.
There is no one more compassionate and loving than a fellow AA member. There is also no one there who doesn't know the score. They have been there and they have done it all and nothing will surprise them.
What can it hurt you to go? What can it help with? Your whole life!!!