Posted by Elaine
on April 05, 2000 at 23:29:21:
In Reply to: crack addiction and depression posted by anita on March 30, 2000 at 20:25:36:
: my name is anita. i have been taking zoloft for about 8 years. i first went to a physician with post partum depression. i realized that i had no self esteem and felt lost. i also realized that i had been feeling this way for most of my life. my husband and i had sessions with a doctor for a short while. the zoloft seemed to work. i stopped crying and everything seemed fine. i should add that i had used cocaine in the past (about 3 years) prior to getting help for depression. life went on and then i found cocaine again. used it on occasion (introveniously) it was undectable especially wearing long sleeves if you get my meaning. anyway, my drug dealer wouldn't sell to me anymore and time went on again. finally, i found crack cocaine! i started using on occasion, then once in awhile then most recently about once weekly. sounds like a pattern, hu? i have been using crack for about 2 years now. my husband was unaware as was everyone else. i snuck around, lied and covered my back, hiding, using all along. i have become an expert at sneaking, lying, and covering my tracks. NOW i have surrendered!!!!! i am sober for 8 days!! i told my husband, everything. we went to a family member and told her as well. in this 8 days of sobriety i have not had any cravings or sick feelings. actually i dont know if i should be experiencing withdrawls. anyway, we have sought help and are now trying to figure out which coarse of treatment to take. my husband loves me and is willing to support me and continue our marriage of 13 years. we have two wonderful children. i am very lucky for this and WILL LOOSE EVERYTHING if my problems dont get fixed. here is the thing....i think, sincerely, that i can stop the cocaine use myself. i mean without detox. i think i need help with dealing with my weaknesses and depression. so do i join N.A? go to a doctor and do a one on one thing or do you think from the sound of things that i am a real sick puppy and need as much help from the inside and outside world as possible? i also would like to know if you think i should be re-evaluated for the zoloft, 8 years seems to be a long time to me. thank you for any input on this matter. oh, one more thing. i have not entirely ruined my life. i still hold the same full time job, pay all the bills on time, run the household, spend quality time with my family and go to church on sunday. yes i sound like the model citizen and now i can be one, soberly.
My opinion is to get help from everywhere you can. Counselling, therapist, etc. would be of enormous help (not your primary care provider though). It's great that you've found the strength to overcome part of the problem yourself (you are very lucky) but this is only the tip of the iceberg and you have to make sure it won't happen again.
As for Zoloft, I thing getting re-evaluating may be a good idea. Besides, crack cocaine does a lot of specific brain damage, so you should get your CT and other tests done as well (just to be sure you are ok). If they find anything abnormal, you will be better off getting treatment sooner, rather than later.