Posted by CH. from Germany
on April 16, 2000 at 14:52:46:
I think i'm a very dependent personality. I drink, I smoke very much and I'm still hangin on my boyfriend, who left me 16 month ago.
But i believe that its not useful to fight only the symptoms (drinking etc), though these behavior produce many problems. Because this symptom-fighting won't change your personality. I want to find the causes, ya know. Maybe the addiction is only a self-medication, for deeper problems, like a lack of confindence or a depression. My father - for example - had been a drinker for many years, than he stopped ten years ago, and the end was: He killd himself six months ago, after a long period of depression. Sometimes i think, if he had drunk, he could have survived.It's so heavy. A drug or something you addicted to is a thing that helps you, while it kills you.
Sorry, this is getting so long, i have to learn to confine. And sorry for my English.
Please tell me your meaning.
Greetings from a wounded heard.