Posted by Confused
on May 08, 2000 at 22:34:46:
I am a male in my 40s and I have an addiction situation that I beleive is not unique but would like to discuss with others. I have a moderate addiction to painkillers which is about 6 pills a day. I have been doing this for about two years and have gone cold turkey to quit a couple of times. As I have gotten older I have found that my energy level has decreased somewhat and taking 30-40 mgs a day of hydrocodone gives me energy and allows me to continue a very active life. I am a fairly succesful businessman and feel that my life is infinitly better when I am taking the drug. WhenI dont, even after the meds are out of my system, I feel listless and tired and just have no energy or enthusiasm. I dont think I am a bad person although I feel guilty about some of the tings I have done to obtain them sometimes. I am active in my community and fairly well thought of. Whats wrong with this?I think that society is making me into a criminal. I have prayed about it often but dont seem to get an answer to this need. Any thoughts or others who feel this way ?