Posted by Confused
on June 02, 2000 at 23:21:53:
In Reply to: Re: Painkillers? Vicodin ES posted by Peggy on June 02, 2000 at 22:26:16:
: since. I have received approximately 18 shots of cortisone in my left hip and around 3 in my right since that period of time.
: Some hoe the previous stuff I wrote disappeared. I've been on hydrocodone so long I,m afraid to stop. I haven't missed a day in about 1and1/2 yrs. I don't know what will happen If I do.
: Will some someone please respond just so I'll know if I'm being heard. Thanks PEg
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: : : : : : : : : : : : i'm in the same boat...let me know how it goes!
: : : : : : : : : : : I know exactly how you feel. I could have written that post myself. I take the same amount every day and i swear it helps. I know all the recovering addicts will tell me i am in deniel but hey it works for me
: : : : : : : : : : This is confused again and I just wanted to add a bit. I only worry about two things in this addiction situation. First I have to control the tolerance as I dont know how much Hydrocodone can hurt your body and Iwould love feedback on that but I do know that too much acetaminiphen is ba for your liver and that is the most available form I have to watch it. Secondly is the criminal aspect which is only criminal bacause the Govt says it is. I worry that if I get caught ding the things that I have to do to get them I will be branded for life. I dont feel like I am hurting anyone other than myself and Im not sure that Im doing that. Now if I get caught it would hurt the ones I love and those that love me as my abilty to earn a living would certainly be diminished. I am looking for some feedback. Addicts, did you quit because you got caught? Did you quit because of an inability to control the tolerance situation? I know that I am more productive when I take a reasonable amount of this drug so why am I wrong? I am not passing judgement I am really confused and concerned. If anr Drs read this post with your views please. Am I just a common addict.Why is it o wrong ?
: : I agree with you confused it would be nice if we all had a place to talk with out the worry of big brother. i am so glad i am not the only one who has this problem(even thought i don't think of it as one, as i am not hurting anyone else)
: : : : : : : : : what are you doing to get your drugs that you have to worry about the criminal aspect of it? I too worry about taking all the acetaminophen. Until two years ago i was a recovering addict i had some liposuction done(badly i mite add) and having to take all the pain meds caused my addiction to become full blown. I have been an addict for all of my adult life, but for the first time i feel i have it under contol. I realize it could all come crumbling down on me at any time, but for now it works for me
: : : : : : : : Dear dc
: : : : : : : : really appreciate your feedback. Im not comfortable explaining what I do to get the drugs but I am not a street addict in any way. I dont trust the anonymiity of the net to go into it but an enterprising individual who is not greedy can get a supply. Again my concern is why I am wrong. As you stated maybe it is seen as denial but I have no desire to quit as a day with it is more productive and exciting. I can and often do go days without it and life is not bad without them its just not as good. Been reading about methadone clinics and am going to do more follow-up but I live in a conservative and rural area and I am guessing at this point but i bet its not exactly accepted or available. I beleive that legalization will take plac towards the end of my life as we are filling the jails with people such as myself and I beleive we turn many otherwise good people into criminals. Again I dont know if anyone other than dc and myself are reading this but evendiffering points of view are welcome.
: : : : : : : Having go to hell and back with my addiction, I have learned many things. First off worry about today. Why can't we apply that same theory to what we do. I am not hurting anyone to look at me you would never know I was an addict.
: : : : : : : confused can you give me your e-mail or is that not proper( I guess I just feel as though somebody finally knows what I am going threw) don't worry i am married(of course my husband does not know about my pill taking)
: : : : : : sorry I asked for your e-mail. Sometimes i don't think.
: : : : : I AM ALSO IN THE SAME BOAT WITH YOU BOTH. I ALSO TAKE 6 PILLS A DAY AND HAVE FOR THE PAST 4 YEARS. I JUST GOT MY LIVER TESTED AND IT WAS FINE. I GET MY PILLS FROM MY DOCTOR BECAUSE HE FOUND THAT IT HELPS A CONDITION THAT I HAVE. HE TOLD ME THAT THE HYDROCODINE WON'T HURT ME BUT KEEPS TRACK OF MY LIVER BECAUSE OF THE ACEDOMIN--- HE GIVES ME LORTAB 10/500 BECAUSE I CAN GET MORE HYDROCODINE WITH LESS ACEDOMIN-- I FEEL GREAT WHEN I TAKE THE PILLS. NOT SO GREAT WHEN I DON'T. GLAD TO KNOW I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE.
: : : : None of you are alone. I feel the same way about the hydrocodone. I feel as though I am in some sort of constant, nagging pain or deppression when I do not take the pills. I don't have very good access to them, but I too have been resourceful and am also scared about the possibility of getting caught trying to get this medicine that helps me feel normal. Could there be a group of people out there who have an undiscovered ailment that is helped by these medications. I feel like I should be on them, even though I know they are addicting and can be bad for me.
: : : Other than the fact that they are addicting and that must be controlled as far as tolerance is concerned how do you feel that they are bad for you? Also since I was the one that started this string of posts I am really trying to figure out a way that we can communicate without giving up our privacy as I am feeling less alone everyday but I feel certain that someone that would be watching and would want to save us from ourselves uder the guise of legalities. If anyone has any ideas let us know.
You are being heard.There are many posts on this board on what to expect and how to deal with it and most of the info is good and will be useful to you. Although you will be uncomfortable you will live through it. Good Luck!