St johns wort is a herb used for depression, it does'nt work over night but it could help you, Also look on the internet for a herb called Kava Kava, this herb is used to relax your body and make you feel more at peace and sociable, this may also help ** I'm not sure if you can take them together so ask the pharmasist and do not take them with any perscription meds for depression- ask your pharmacist or local health food worker, i hope this is of some help many positive thoughts and i don't think your stupid and your not alone i am going through basically the same thing -check out the depression healthboard. katie