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Posted by ???? on August 28, 2000 at 15:07:12:

I need to vent. Since my 4 year old son was diagnosed with Autism 2 years ago I have no marriage. I also have
a 9 year old daughter (mild ADHD). I work Monday thru Thursday, 9 hours a day and spend every spare
moment I have doing research to help my son. My son 2 years ago was very severe, only three words, no eye
contact, walked on his toes, terrible behavior, hit his head, spinned in circles, played with no one, was in his own
world most of the time and didn't even know who I was. I was devistated at first and than became determined to
get my son back. My husband (who would do nothing to help just left everything up to me. Well now my son is
back (still not normal and is behind) in our world. He talks all the time, loves to play with other children, better
eye contact, no bad behavior, no longer walks on his toes, he is saying 6 to 7 word sentences, knows his color,
shapes and so much more. He know longer goes into his own world and truly is a different child. I am so thankful
to have him back and here those words every day "Mommy, I love you". He is truly a mommy's boy. My son has
done so many things that helped him like, vitamin therapy, secretin, gf/cf diet, one on one therapy in the home
for a year and a half, chelation, speech therapy, o.t therapy and his early childhood school. I have traveled
around to some conferences (DAN conf.) to learn as much as possble. I always do it all alone because my
husband is to lazy and has not patience. I could tell you a story that would take me hours to type on all the work
I have done for my son with no help. I have been to counseling twice and this has helped but my husband will
not. He will do whatever I tell him to do but when it comes to research, doctors. appt. etc. he does nothing. All
he ever does is tell me how he is going to change and help me more because he knows that all of my sons'
gains are because of me. I also try to have time for my daughter so she is not left out (like girl scouts and
church activities). I love my children so much that it hurts and they truly are my life. I never knew how much life
meant to me until I had children. My husband is so far behind on what to do for my son that it makes me sick.
He is all talk and no show. I have no respect for him anymore and don't believe anything he says because he
never follows through. We had our tenth anniversary last Friday and it meant nothing to me. The only reason I
stay with him is because of my children. I know that is terrible but I have lost all respect for him. He tells me that
nobody would every want me because I am to obsessed with my children. I know he loves his kids but he is not
as dedicated as I am.

The really bad thing is that I miss having sex and romance in my life. I am truly a romantic person and wish
sometimes I could find someone to just have an affair with that would love me for me. I know if I was single that
I could get dates but the minute they found out I had a child with Autism they would probably run and with me it
is a package deal. I brought these children into this world and I am responsible for there future. Most of the time
I just fantasize about a relationship and that helps. I went to my 20 year class reunion a few weeks ago and my
husband did tell me that out of my class (over 400 classmates) I was one of the hottest women there. I put on
my tight red dress, did my hair just perfect, hoping he would not be able to keep his hands off of me but it did
not work. Instead all of my old classmates would not leave me alone. I was even dancing with other people.
One guy (whom I did not know but his wife graduated with me) ask my husband if he could dance with me
because he just loved blondes. My husband said sure and I did because this guy was cute. I had a few drinks
and was pretty loosened up and was trying everything to get my husband's attention and it did work a little but
when we left to go home, it was over. I was hoping he would just grab me in his arms and give me that romantic
kiss, than pull me in the back seat like we were kids again but No. Sometimes I think he is just to layed back and
I am to wild for him. He tells me he misses sex but it is hard to get interested anymore for me (unless I have a
few drinks) when I have lost all respect for him.

I know my life is over as far as romance/sex goes now but I do have my children and should not complain. It's
just that sometimes when there sleeping and everything is quiet I miss my love life. I am determined that my son
will be able to take care of himself someday and I do not know what I will do when he is gone because by than I
will hate my husband and will probably leave him. I will than be single at 51 years of age. I want to leave my
husband but I will not until my son has graduated from high school and able to take care of himself (which will
happen).

I love that song by Kenny Rogers (buy me a rose -I think that is what it's called) because that it truly me.

Just wondering if anyone else feels this way.

Follow Ups
  • Re: my husband GROW-UP, for God's sake..and yur kid's sake-Grandma Peg 14:37:36 8/31/00 (1)
    • Re: my husband Sorry so many letters missing in message-Grandma Peg 14:52:08 8/31/00 (0)
  • Re: my husband Sounds familiar (husband) 11:24:55 8/30/00 (0)
  • Re: my husband ????? 09:58:48 8/29/00 (0)

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