Posted by Stewart
on October 10, 2000 at 22:18:51:
Thanks for all of the posts. Some people called me directly and some e:mailed me. It really made me feel accepted, and this is an issue I am dealing with. The only place I feel I belong is my Dr's office and my counselor's. Thanks it really means allot to me. Today was a better day. I went to my counselor and cried about all of this for the first time since the first surgery 2.5 years ago. She of course, was very supportive and told me that it was about time I admitted to myself that this has been difficult and there will be somethings in my life I will never do again, or do the same way. So I am going to rebuild this whole life of mine again. I am going to have my brother raise my garden up about a foot higher then it already is so I don't have to bend over as much. I love gardening. I will be creating new dreams and charting new challenges. As I think I mentioned I have a job interview on Thursday for a job I believe I would really like and a company which is well respected. No, they will not know what happened to me. No employer will ever know again. It has only worked against me. No one understands unless they have "been there and done that". The phrase "Back Problem" is the most abused phrase of all. Do you know that more people see their Dr's for back problems then for the common cold? Yes, this is true. It's all going to be brand new now, I am scared to death, but I will get there. Especially when I have friends like all of you.
Oh, I agree with "fed up", this board needs alittle bit more flexability, after all we are here to help each other. We have enough limitations in our lives as it is already. Some slack would be greatly appreciated by all. Say a prayer for my job interview, and God's Blessing to all of you. Stewart.