Okay, so I'm not alone. But could this have something to do with the vast amount of guilt that I feel about having her and not being able to provide for her as I would like to?
I mean, I have to return to school in the fall, and she'll only be three months then. My mom can't watch her because she'll be at work. I don't want one of those babysitters who only watches like two other kids because they are always the ones on tv caught beating the babies, and then the care centers...all of those germy little kids that are going to be coughing and sneezing around my baby???? I'm freaked!!!