Re: still scared to take paxil!!
I was in the same boat as you re not wanting to take anything. But in the end I was convinced by a family friend (also a psychiatrist) that not doing anything was a far worse option. You don't want your body to continue on this crazy cycle. By taking an SSRI drug you "interrupt" the cycle. Think of software in a computer that gets stuck and the drug as a reboot. But the drug alone is probably not enough. You should perhaps consider CBT to stop the triggers.
Like you I didn't want to go near Paxil because of the "Paxil Prison" stories I heard. So I'm on Celexa (Cipramil) and it has been just brilliant. Now I'm kicking myself for not sorting this out sooner. I kept trying to soldier on but it was a bad move in hindsight. Try taking Celexa on a half dose for about 6 weeks and try keeping the dose low.