Re: first test passed barley
Congratulations man, that's pretty amazing. You should definately feel good about yourself for doing that, it would have been very easy to screw things up for yourself.
Word of advice, though: don't look for "tests." I've read that an opportunity that you can pass up one day may be too overwhelming the next, so the best bet is always to just stay away from those lil blue guys (M361's if I remember correctly). I don't think you'd look for trouble anyway, but just puttin in my 2 cents.
Congratulations again, you should definately feel good about not succumbing to the silly voice in your head that says it's okay.