Jules the LEEP isnt as bad as it seems, at least for me it wasnt. the doctor had this numbing spray that literally numbed the inside of my vagina/ cervix, and then afterwards he gave me some kind of anesthesia, and i didnt even really feel nuttin cuz of the numbing spray from before. anyways, i feel you when you say that you have come to terms w/ having HPV. i never thought that i would get any kind of STD, especially at such an early piont of my life. the abnormal cells will have to be removed eventually if you have them cuz theyre the ones that are going to cause the cancer on your cervix, so its best to get em removed while early and hope that they cells dont grow again. as for me im waiting for my pap in august, i dont know what to expect but if all the cells werent removed in the LEEP then im expected to either do it again or have to do another type of procedure to remove it.