Thanks so much for your offer to listen, I might take you up on that one. I finally told some friends recently and they have been amazing. I just have so much going through my mind and so many fears (hiv specifically) its hard to see any light at the end of this tunnel, 2 months is a loooong time and till i know i'm ok physically i have no idea how i can start the emotional healing process. I get panic attacks that come out of nowhere. I agree with you the shame and guilt i know its irational i understand that but i still can't help but feel it. I am scared to tell too many people because i feel like if i do my life will never go back to normal. *sigh*
Thanks for your offer to help, i may post things here for ya once in a while, you may or not respond, thanks for letting me release some of this.