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We were all really stupid drunk, that's why. Also--I don't go places my X goes--he shows up where I go. I have a lot of friends there, and was out with my girlfriends. As far as too much alcohol with my friends--DUH!! It is the only reason I would even stay at her house--too much alcohol. Talk about stupid--the reason the 900 dollars was won--rock, paper, scissors with 20$ a game!!!! Ridiculous, but funny all at the same time. These guys drive nice cars, have beautiful homes, but are idiots. I just made the stupid mistake of dating one!LOL

I have chosen to forgive Joe, but yes--am I totally over him? Guess not if I want him to squirm with the VM--but I am human. Forgiveness is divine--but I am a mere human, with human feelings, one of those being a little revenge. Now, I know I don't want to get back with him--but is it really a crime to let the ego maniac know it too?

I did take his rejection personally--took it very hard. But now I know it was b/c of other, much more serious issues with him.

And as far as some guy in the future not wanting me to be "playing in bed w/ my X" ...ya think?? I don't have anyone to answer to right now, except me. I wasn't driving, so I don't really care what anyone thinks aboout that. Just pointing out the fact that we didn't touch is all. ANd with that guy coming in the room--he;s the biggest man ho ever. Pro football player, just got cut--major idiot, this guy. Should have taken into consideration he's one of Joe's best friend's! LOL.

GE--I see what you are saying about running into him--but I like to hang out where I hang out--and there are lots of others there. I don't go there to see Joe. It actually made me so much more over him to hang out with him, b/c he's a jerk, and I can see that more and more now. I just like to twist the knife a tiny bit--but it's human. He didn't even give me so much as a phone break up--and we were spending every day and night together, had our children involved, and he told me he was in it forever--he had found his freaking soul mate, bla bla. Twisting for a couple of weeks that I have moved on is only a little normal, dont ya think?

ANyway, I feel like I have forgiven him. At least I'm not majorly angry or thinking about him all the time--and I know I don't want him back. I guess dropping the anger seemed more complete to me, but I see what you all are saying too. Maybe it's more realistically a partial forgiveness, huh?LOL