I don't have any advice. Just know you are in my thoughts. My dad was an undiagnosed bipolar. It was horrid being around him. I loved him dearly but he drove us all batty when he was alive with all the strange things he'd do and mood swings.
If I had wise words of wisdom I'd share them but I don't have any, and I am sorry that I don't. (((HUGS))) I can only imagine how frustrating you must feel and anxious, etc. That also is a trigger for you too, and in the midst of it all one must take care of themselves. And that is hard to do too.
Please know you will be in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself. Thinking of you.