I'm waiting for my referral to the mental health department and when I'm ill I have no concept of time so I feel like I've been waiting forever-my husband tells me it's been two weeks. I have never been diagonsed but I know myself and I know my patterns. I've dodged diagnosis as long as possible but now I can feel myself going again I know I need help this time. I have a little boy now so I have to be at my best for him. Added pressure.
I have been getting sick for 11 years now and have had two of my paranoid episodes in the last 4 years - it could be worse, I know. I feel like that because I'm only self-diagnosed I'm not getting any help yet. I only have myself to blame for this. I'm so self aware-which is both good and bad. No one is going fast enough for me at the moment including the health professionals. I have the urge to do everything all at once and my brain keeps tripping up on it's own thoughts because there are too many of them.
I'm having a hard time, but at least I know I am.