Re: I lost my precious Mom today....
I am so very sorry for your loss,my mother was sick for many many years, (not cancer) but just about everything else, she had her first stroke at the age of 44 and several after that . anyway that stuff is not important now, what is however, is that you must not feel guilty for allowing your mom to go the way that she wanted to. you were there with her when she took her last breath as i was with mine, it has been 13 yrs since my mother passed away and there isn't a day that I don't miss her, I still cry for her, that void in your life will never go away, but you will get used to it being there and it will simply become a part of your life everyday.Eventually it won't hurt as much as it does right now. Remember she was your mom and she always will be, Honor her life and be grateful for the time that you had with her, and take comfort in knowing that although you are suffering now, she is not.
Hang in there Tayreb