Thanks for your repsonses! Yeah hypochondriate you are right it probably will get worse, I have battled on my own for so long not really taking much action, in the hope it will get better but in fact its just gotten worse, and I also think one of the biggest reasons it has gotten worse is that I have given into it and DO spend so much time reserching and analysing the net, I think if I had tried to ignore it and occupied my mind with other things it might not have gotten so bad!
I do live near quite a few universities, in fact it was just the other day I was reading up on a counselling service offered by a very good university near me but I wasnt sure if it was just for students or a wider base, because it did say it was the department of counselling, so i assumed students would probably be training there too!
I would like to go and see a councellor, one that specialises in anxiety, but I looked into it and they are *so* expensive and I just cant afford it at the moment!
I dont think just talking to someone would help I feel like I need someone to calm me down, reassure me and basically TELL me that what I am feeling and what I *think* is real, basically isn't possible, and knock some sense into me, as well as helping me get over the anxiety. I mean I know that my feelings and worries are due to anxiety but i still need to know that my ideas arent real!
Dawn- have you ever had any medication or medical advice? I hate anxiety so much it takes a perfectly healthy young person and makes them ill because they imagine they are its just horrible! It's like every single 'symptom', not even symtpoms really, sometimes even just 'normal' everyday feelings and sensations will send me off now, whereas everyone gets them and dsmisses them without a thought! I wanna be one of those people!
One thing I want to know is- I know that anxiety can make your mind capable of 'producing' symptoms if you are worried about an illness, but with my association of any pain or sensation in the head or scalp I then suddenly 'feel' as if something is leaking, where it be increased saliva or whatever it may be, is my mind actually making that happen? Like kind of I feel a pain in my head and then suddenly I expect to feel something in my mouth or throat because I know it will freak me out if it happens so does your mind actually make it happen by association almost? Is that actually possible? Sorry this bits waffly its kind hard to explain what I mean lol!
Has anyone helped theiur anxiety sheerly from relaxation, exersize and diet alone? Or with any herbal supplements? I am really reluctant to take any anxiety medicines because I dont want any side effects! I did take St Johns Wort for a bit and that actually seemed to help but i didnt noticed until I stoppped taking it when I ran out (stupid should have just bought more) but I suddenly was aware of feeling more anxious, and less able to suppress my anxiety thoughts, whereas on it I found it much easier to go okay laura you're being ridiculous you know this isnt real and you're making it all, get a grip!
I did go and buy some more in a liquid form (cos it was cheaper) but it didnt really have the same effect so its now kind of put me off again thinking that SJW doesnt work but I suppose i could try the old tablet form ones again!
I have also realised two things are EXTREMELY bad for me if i am already feeling slightly anxious- caffiene and alcohol, I was fine yesterday until I went and drank an entire 2 ltr bottle of cola (stupid) that was it then, asides from practically vibrating I spent the rest of the night having a huge anxiety spell, and the night before was the same but after a few glasses of wine... hmm
Has anything ever worked for you?
thanks again, laura