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Old 03-12-2007, 09:00 PM   #3
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Re: Lyme head-shrinker (Dr. B) in NJ?

Hi Mic B....I was going to wait to say hi in the morning...Until I read this ....

You know alot of my story...and I guess we help others by saying what a flippin nightmare we've gone or are going through...And the flippin battles we just keep knocking away from us....

I didn't know for sure I had lyme..I was not fortunate enough like many here to have found this board. I battled years of being told I was bi-polar...and oh my gosh the losses I went through...and the not feeling good. And the WHY'ssssssss.....and how comes....

Was put on antidepressants because the damn doctors just didn't want to put 2 and 2 together...they could see how sick I was...but oh no I needed antidepressants ...You know what? They NEVER worked...just another pill ...to put in me...

And YES I saw councelor after councelor...therapist...what ever you would like to call them...and do you know ..they would say to me ....There's nothing wrong with you...but it did give me someone to become a (IN THAT TIME) a friend...one lady I saw she and I would sit and drink coffee. And talk about her struggles with her job and being a Mom....lol....But that was okay...we laughed and smiled and cried...I paid to have a friend....

Mickie I flat out didn't know for many many years what I had...I mean I knew what I had ..just didn't find the right doctor for a long time to treat me...by then I was needing MUCH MORE THAN JUST A THERAPIST.....yikes....

What happened to you going to find that support group???? I think I remember you saying there is one around you ...Or have you possibly thought of calling the support group leader and seeing if maybe someone could just meet you for coffee...or come by and see you at your house...You truly my freind NEED to do something to get someone sitting face to face with you...
weather it is a paid friend (therapist) or a support group...You need to get out of yourself for a little while...

Lyme is nothing to take lightly as you know. I am wondering have you called your Lyme doctor and told her how poorly you are doing??? Could you make that one of your calls tomorrow Mickie? Something needs to be done. I know I got down in those holes before...Where one just wants to say I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!! And it is okay to feel that way...but once you see how far down you have gotten...It is time to find a way to pull yourself back out of it! You just can't give up!! That is not an option.

Like I have said to you so many times. My gosh you are carrying such a heavy load. ALL BY YOURSELF! And it is your turn to ask for someone in person to hold your hand awhile and share a smile.

I know you are scared to have a picc line in. But that is what truly started me on the upward swing. I was pretty far down there also. Please think about that....ALSO....

Do you know that you just might be going through some withdrawls from the med's. and let's think if you aren't on anything those critters are going to start playing havoc with you again. Your doctor Mic really needs to know how you are right now...From what i have read about her she is suppose to be one of the best...LET HER KNOW!!!! She is there to help you...tell her the insanity you are going through...she just might have some suggestions for you to do around your area....

I truly truly wish I could be there for you in person....I worry about YOU and so many others on here...one thing I learned though and I know you and others are learning it too...You can't count on anyone else to get you better...you HAVE to do the foot work Mickie. You PLEASE reach out tomorrow and get someone to talk too...PLEASE!!!

Also...FIND THOSE TINCTURES and start taking them again. Soak in the bath tub...enjoy your bed again. It is spring time. smell the air...take a short walk...Whatever it is you need to do to pull out of the lymie funk....DON'T LET THEM WIN!!! Your a strong person....call your doctor and ask she get back to you tomorrow...

You are always in my thoughts and Prayer's. This as you know is a good venting place...don't shut your self up...were always here for you!

Will be watching for you.....

BIG FAT HUGS!!!