Re: it hits hard agian.
I know exactly how you feel because I'm going through the same thing. I'm pretty sure I will be on drugs for the rest of my life. Someone once said to me, if you were a diabetic you wouldn't mind being on insulin for the rest of your life.
Also, Dakota said something to me in another post about the brain being an organ needing care just like any other, or something to that effect. It's true but we certainly need to be reminded of that.
Just keep doing your best. It's not your fault you feel this way, and you are not alone. That's what I keep telling myself.