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Old 09-15-2007, 06:04 PM   #1
hopetofeelwell1 hopetofeelwell1 is offline
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Down on myself about relapse after nearly 5 months

Hi all! I caved in. I have been in such a depression with different ailments and burst out crying and had 3 today after nearly 5 months. They were the new designer ones that are additive free but tasted like camel dung. I'm actually grateful. I have really been watching myself these few weeks especially since I had my gall bladder out and have been spiraling into a huge depression on top of clinical depression. Stupid me! Why didn't I just take my antidepressant today? It serves me right! I had the most terrible taste in my mouth and smell on my hands and feel so guilty and defeated. I think I really need a pep talk from anyone on the board because I am so weepy on top of this. I will quit again. I just can't take the taste of these things anymore. Anyone else suffering from heavy duty depression and has relapsed? Thanks so much for hearing me out. Take care--Hopeto--