I believe i have PPD
Paranoid Personality Disorder.
My mom has a lot of problems, sometimes I think she is literally insane. I have always told myself I would never be like her.
The things she has said to me growing up, I sometimes think is what has triggered what is wrong with me.
I always think people are talking about me, and that they're staring at me, etc.
I get nervous even walking into a gas station to pay for my gas, or walk into a store by myself.
I don't like going places alone.
I'm unmotivated, I really don't care what happens.
I get mad over little things, and afterwards realise, that I was being stupid, but again it happens. I don't catch myself doing it until its already over with.
My friends have gotten tired of me. I find sarcasm is the only way I can be social, because I find that that is the only way people will like me, is if i'm funny.
I strive for attention, I can't help it either, it's hard.
I went to the phyciatrist.... and they believe i am bi-polar? i know i am not bi-polar, it made me mad, because I've been doing research on this for years, and I even explained to them, but they wouldn't listen.
Is there anyone else out there who have any similarities to my problems?
I'm curious, and would like any ones advice.