Hang in there droop, i know how hard it is,, i wonder if Suboxone is something that would help you in your recovery? It really has made it easy for my wife and i to kick opiates, THo i know there is a long way to go and a taper from the Sub coming.
Our Doc. also has us going to Phsyc. Docs who also specialize in addiction
youre in my prayers.Acap