I completely understand. I too have struggled with cutting off and on for the past 6 years. and I am currently on an on stage. And I absolutly HATE it. But even through my hate I continue to cut. I will be screaming in my mind to stop and yelling out Jesus help me even as I am cutting. No control over it at all sometimes it seems.
Let me know if you come up with any good ways to overcome cause I could use some advice as well.
