In my case, my husband was a vendor. I see the things he sold my company every day as well. I also hear his company name or overhear someone say the name of one of his co-workers and it kills me. I truly think my company is giving his company more business now than when he was alive
My Mikey was a big presence -- not only in personality but size. It was the obesity that resulted in his medical problems that precipitated his death.
My prayers are with you honey. God will shine the light and let you see the end of the tunnel someday at his choosing not yours unfortunately. But, you will get through the pain you are feeling.
While you will never forget your times with him or the memories of your lives, you will be given a purpose to live again.
Take Care, you are in my prayers