I'm 20, my mom passed. How to cope?
Hi everyone,
I'm 20 years old and I'm still attending college. My mom passed away from stomach cancer on December 1, 2008. I was with her until the very end. I took time off from school 6 months before she passed and spent every minute with her. We took walks in the park, went shopping, cooked and watched lots of TV together. During that time, I grew so attached to my mom and couldn't even imagine her leaving me alone in this world. Now that she's gone, I don't know how to live without her. I feel alone, afraid and find myself frustrated with life as each day goes on. I find myself throwing fits throughout the day around my boyfriend and being angry at everything in life. I miss her so much and I keep thinking about how much it sucks not being able to talk to her about school, boys and life. Whats worse is that I imagine myself in the future without her (my graduation, my wedding, etc) and I feel soooooo much pain. I still feel like crying everyday and I fight to hold in tears every time I think of her. When will things get better?
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