Hi Adultorchild and welcome
I'm a bit confused.... not unusual for me!
are you talking about looking for a real mother - like a birth mother? if so and thats what you need to do - then you have to do what you need to do - its difficult to answr this without more info
If you are talking about the chlld inside looking for a mother it felt it never had - then this is where a therapist can help you find the means to fill the needs of the child inside - help to heal it and help you become a whole instead of a fractured person
Either way people around you may not like you changing and growing - they are used to the old you and may not like or feel comfortable with the new one -
Don't know if any of this helps - take care