I know exactly how you are feeling, it's good to know I am not alone on this boat. I cry myself to sleep every night because I'm worried sick that I might have HIV. I too seem to have symptoms of HIV. If I test positive I feel like my world is going to end. I have a family and just the thought that I will not see my kids grow up makes me cry al the more. I am getting tested tomorrow and I am sooo scared that I might have a panic attack. Please wish me luck and I wish you luck as well, please get tested before you worry yourself litterally sick like I am doing to myself. That is why I am going tomorrow, because I cannot take this any longer, not knowing whether I really have HIV or not. I feel so great to be able to confide in somebody at all, I don't have anybody to confide in my real life.