Re: I need your help, please help me.......
I think that you should perhaps get yourself down to the doctors for a chat. You are going to exhaust youself completely. Medication can and does help with these thoughts although you have to give these time to work. As Bubbly said Dr Claire Weekes books are very good. Dont under estimate them. She explains that you should not fight these thoughts, you should just accept them while you are ill and accept them WILLINGLY, its the fighting/avoiding them that causes the trouble. Try to get some help from the doctor and you will be surprised in time that these thoughts will ease and become less and less important. You will be able to see them for what they are, just thoughts that perhaps dont really have or need an answer.
Let us know how you get on.