Re: help me please
Gosh, my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your son. I can only assume he's in some sort of therapy and/or taking meds of some kind. If he isn't, he needs to. If he is, he needs to maybe find a different therapist or some sort of inpatient therapy maybe. I don't know, I'm not a pro and I have my own problems but that's my first reaction.
No, you can't blame yourself for his actions. He may not be able to control them properly at this time, but they are still his choices. You don't have to pay to send him there, just don't. You also may want to see a therapist for yourself, I'm sure it would help you find some peace. You need to take the blame off of yourself. I hope others here comment, too. I'm sure there are many people here with better advise than I can give, but know that my thoughts are with you.