Try the local hospice program in your area because they have grief counseling and support groups.Get involved with this kind of support group and draw your strength and support from those in the group who have gone through similar experiences. You need to take care of yourself by grieving your parents death in your own time and your own way. Talk to friends who have lost their parent(s) and ask them how they are learning to cope with the loss. Talk to your pastor/priest if you have church that you attend regularly. Vent your feeling of grief and loneliness here on the message board knowing that you're not alone and there is someone out there going through similar loss.