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I am 21 year old and last year I was diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic.
It started when my parents through me out for smoking pot, and I ended up living on my own. I became increasingly isolated stopped feeling emotions, and carried on smoking pot. I had no money was not capable of getting a job and started having vivid dreams, waking hallucinations, and became so deluded that I thought my parents were not my real reletives, that I had a twin that they wern't telling me about, and imagined that my life had been completely different to how I had preveously remembered. I believed the delusions were real and when I was hospitalised I believed that I was a doctor at the hospital and that I was on leave and would be returning to work soon.
I had delusions of persecution, I believed that I had a stalker, grandouse, I beleived I had special talents and was a millionaire, and somatic, where believed I had a broken arm and other physical injuries whilst I was incarcerated in hospital. My psychosis was serious, I had a lack of insight which I have recently dicussed with a pyschologist, and refused to take medications.
At times my psychiatric nurse says I show no emotion on my face.
Does anyone have insight into this type (paranoid) and how I can avoid this kind of stress again, I am not looking for miracles.