Re: Does my mother truly love me?
We have all seen this movie before.
Anyway, that is a terrible situation to be in and I really feel for you.
That said, I strongly exhort you not to do anything against your own life. It is not worth your while.
I think it is just a question of time until you can get rid of this, but I know this is no consolation for you.
I would suggest you seek the emotional support from someone older, since your father is not available. Maybe a teacher, a relative, a neighbor - someone you can trust and open up to.
It won't be the solution of your problems, but at least it will give you some relief.
Are you into sports or something like that? This would help you to shed some of the current stress. Even voluntary work would help you.
Be strong, please, but seek the support from people who can listen to you.
I don't think we need to hear your mother's version. I can't answer your answer if she loves you or not. Possibly she doesn't even love herself. And probably she also has some mental issues.
If you can pray, pray for her also.