i recently saw my doctor and he wants to put me on 10mg of ritalin
10 mg/day of ritalin is just barely considered a therapeutic dosage for an adult. You say that he "wants" to put you on it, meaning that he has not yet given you a prescription for it? Has he discussed the use of antidepressants in lieu of this "problematic" (for you) drug?
Just wondering if you may be having some sort of job burn out due to the nature of your stressfull and dangerous job?
I personally would not tell anyone anything just yet until you have a definitive answer to your questions.