Re: still in denial and slowly deteriorating. please help!
I have been in your shoes for many many years.. Coke was my drug of choice for many reasons. Coke itself is not addictive as it is a need for it mentally. Anyway, believe me, you really do need to seek professional help. You re not in a good spot unfortunately. I feel for you cuz I know exactly what coke can do and how it can bring you and your world down around you.
I believe adderal is coke similar so be careful. That amount can do you some serious harm.