Re: Implosive Anger Type
I know how you feel. I take meds for epilepsy I'm told are the problem. I ask myself everyday, is that you feeling angry or your medication? I know I am actually angry and what I'm actually angry about, that deep underlying reason I'm upset and it is REAL. I just generally don't handle my problems the way I do now. I am ashamed of my behavior even when alone because we can not take our actions back. I'll throw a tantrum and then not talk for days because......because. I withdraw from people for what I did alone and how I knew they 'made' me feel. My husband is awful good to me, a saint. And his wife is a brooder. The only thing I have found to do is exhaust myself in a healthy way. I ride my bike. I have a stationary bike and one for the road. I ride til I drop. All the time brooding away, pushing out that energy. Not breaking anything important to me. Not feeling shame but strength. If it is chopping wood, yard work, walking or get a punching bag and go at it. Work it out til there is nothing left. Stand there proudly in your sweat instead of shamefully in the rubble you can create. It is all I have found. I hope I have helped. You helped me by just letting me know I'm not alone. I'm new at this so I didn't bother to see if there was an age or gender, but you can find something. I'm a pathetic little ole gal but I can ride a bike.