annii456

You sound frantic and that I can get with you real good! I have bip but before I got dx''d I found myself in a similar situation. Usually takes 10 yrs to get your final diagnosis so you are way ahead of the game, no matter what it gets titled as.

I feel that not everyone has the same bip showings. I have had it for 25 years and have had 3 big manics and 2 small episodes (my particular response is buying, I can burn up the phone, computer or stores in person for 12-24hrs usually and rack up 12,000-20,000+ in debt. I am not boasting trust me, I've come close to losing my credit rating, my monthly income, not to mention an incredible husband of 33 yrs.

It takes awhile to get regulated on meds and learn what works for you and what doesn't. That will be a big part you and your relationship with you therapist, if you don't feel like you can be completely open and honest within a month or two change until you get the right fit. Once you calm down and can think and observe yourself, , you can start to deal much better and work with your family too.Read books and learn about your illness, read these message boards use only what helps you, we are not all the same nor are we in the same place at the same time. Use it but don't panic when someone is sicker than you it doesn't mean you will go that route.

For right now? When I felt the crazies I would get on my stepper and climb and yell or sing at the top of my lungs until I calmed down the fastest and loudest rants going on in my head. The exercise was good and slowed things down, I do caution doing this in front of your husband or kids, they may run out of the room screaming themselves. LOL I tried that I know that reaction very well, in fact it brought on a bout of hysteria, Oh what a day that was!

Suggest to your husband that at the moment you need to work with the pdoc to get a verbal relationship and meds established before you can even try to explain it to him. I took my husband in with me after about 2 months because I didn't know what was happening to me and all I was doing was reacting to all the rushing feelings I couldn't even begin to handle alone. My hub and I learned how to talk to each other, in fact he will point out in the way I suggested " Think you might be manic?usually it's a U THINK? moment for me and I will either call the doc or I already have a med plan changes like that.

That's about all I can think about for the beginning of this, you will learn more how to calm yourself down in time. (I know that easier said than done, but there really is no way to rush this, sorry)

Good luck to you, I'll be thinking of ya, annii456