Re: Bad ex boyf
It does seem that you have unresolved issues to face.
I know that it will be uncomfortable(and in many respects,difficult) for you to do so but sharing the uncomfortable and traumatic will help you to stand up to what has transpired in your life.
If you still feel that you can't explain it verbally,might I suggest writing a letter or sending an email to her.
From that point,you can discuss if psychotherapy may be beneficial for you.
Please elaborate more,if you are up to it,
When in doubt, post it out.